I believe you should still remember this face. Still very young and much more attractive too. Hasn’t been too long since I saw you, I miss those good old days but I guess that’s life, it moves on… Between then and now, I have learnt so much life lessons; from the good, the bad, right down to the ugly. So I have one or two advises for you.
Childhood… Enjoy this phase. Once it’s gone, it can never be regained. I remember you were too eager to grow up, it’s not a bad thing, but it’s better to take each stage as it comes. There’s plenty time to grow up. So enjoy your childhood!
School… most importantly, high school. Try your possible best not to be swayed by what other people think or say about you. Stay true to yourself and don’t get influenced by peer groups. Embrace your uniqueness, it would eventually be the ticket to your success.
Bullying/Bullies; this is the hardest battle you will have to fight in high school. There’s no manual on how to handle this situation but always report it to a member of staff. I really would not advice fighting back; but if it comes to it, do what you have to do. What you don’t realize is how unkind their lives are. Their spirits are broken and much to their tiny understanding, preying on vulnerable people like you, seems to be the best way to protect themselves.
Forgiveness… you struggle with this part. But know this, forgiveness WILL set you free; so let go of every anger, bitterness and hatred because holding on to them will only hurt you more than you already are. Also learn to forget. I know this seems to be the hardest part considering the fact that you have a very good memory but try your very best because it will aid the speed of healing.
When you are unforgiving and carry animosity, you feed the very soul of conflict that keeps your pain alive. If you suffocate your heart with anger, all your dreams will die. The only way to allow your soul to freely breathe, is to forgive. – Bryant McGill
I noticed you waste so much time in front of the mirror. The society we live in, has painted a distorted image of beauty, DO NOT let it define you. Stop starving yourself because believe me, you are beautiful just the way you are. Even if you add a few more pounds, you still remain BEAUTIFUL… Those that made you feel small and stupid, are wrong. I know how much it hurts; but you’re yet realise that inner beauty outlives that of the physical every single time. Don’t get me wrong, the mirror isn’t your enemy; see yourself through your eyes and know that you are loved and well appreciated just the way you are.
I understand you hate living under a microscope and it always feels as though mum and dad keeps watching and judging your every move… Strict curfews, being grounded from social activities e.t.c… all these may seem unreasonable but mum and dad really do have your best interests at heart. If they didn’t love you, they wouldn’t care what you did. Boundaries and rules are a sign of good parenting and tough love. With time, you will get to understand/reason with them. But trust me, they don’t hate you.
You’re going to fall in love several times while you’re young, but my best advice to you is, ignore ALL attractions. Wait until you are fully ready. Believe me, there’s plenty of time for all that. Men will come and go but stay true to yourself. Be the best you can be in all you do and build yourself up to the standard that no man can mess you about. Your happiness shouldn’t depend on them. And If you decide to flow with the attractions; one will break your heart and in the process break his own, others will come and go but each one will teach you a valuable lesson in love that will prepare you for the man you’re going to marry. Stay away from the sly ones at the bar who asks you to dance. Nothing good will come from them. You’ll meet a few from the church too. But know this, the devil can also be found in the church… His lies will hurt you more than his fists. He’ll tear you down to keep you from standing back up, but you will, eventually! YOU ARE A SURVIVOR!
Life is full of twists and turns; don’t be afraid to stray from the well-worn path that everyone else is walking. Embrace the challenges you’ll face and don’t let the fear of failure box you into years of regrets. How do you hope to learn anything if you never make any mistakes? Trust your instincts, listen to your heart and fight so hard for what you believe in. Stop wasting precious time running down echoing streets in pursuit of happiness. You’ll find it’s been inside you all along.
Like I said earlier, don’t be in so much hurry to grow up. Slow down and enjoy the ride. Even though you are struggling with some tough, emotional issues, each experience is a small piece of the puzzle, a composition of the beautiful person you’ll become. Live life to the MAX, because you only have the opportunity to live once!
Your much older self.